The hustle and bustle of people working hard inside my Aunty’s house snapped me out of my mood. It was Eid after all and there were more important things to focus on than mercurial people.
MUM: Good, you’re here. I need you to wrap this plate in cling. We’re going to the Akoojee’s.
I am not sure how, where or when it happened, but the Akoojees were our second family and Eid would not be Eid if we didn’t visit each other.
I walked towards Fatimah and embraced her as we exchanged Eid greetings. She looked much stronger and happier since her days in hospital.
FATIMAH: What did you do all morning?
I rolled my eyes and gave her a look.
FATIMAH: Oh, now you have to tell me.
ME: Ah, but I really don’t want to talk about it.
FATIMAH: Come on, spill.
I gave her a brief summary of the morning’s events.
ME: Which reminds me, I promised Nuha I would bring you to see them. Don’t worry you can see Zayaan as well.
Fatimah shot me a look and punched me in the arm.
ME: Ouch!
FATIMAH: Its not like that. I don’t like him. I don’t know him.
I knew she was telling the truth but that wasn’t going to stop me from teasing her.
A few hours later, we were all back at Aunty Roxx’s where the crowd had gotten larger and the house had become noisier. Soon, dinner was served and we were digging into our meals… that is until the Mohameds returned. My appetite vanished.
I tried to eat but there was an uneasy feeling in my stomach. Water didn’t help. Air, I needed air. I excused myself from the table and exited the tent heading for the garden.
Aunty Roxx’s garden was no ordinary garden. She had her own mini maze that only a handful of people knew about. I found myself wandering through the hedges until I reached the middle where a fountain stood. The gnawing feeling in my stomach was still there but at least I could breathe. Taking in the fresh air, my lungs were grateful.
I moved towards the fountain and sat on the edge. There was something soothing about hearing water fall so I used this moment of peace to gather my wits and compose myself before I headed back to socialise with everyone.
Looking down, I stared at my reflection in the water. Who was this person and why couldn’t she handle her emotions? Why did she have trouble sleeping? Where did this all stem from? And why was Zaheer’s presence affecting her so much?
There was something my therapist had told me in our first session together. She spoke about triggers and how sometimes we as humans can experience outbursts of emotions set off by triggers. It wasn’t necessarily the trigger itself that was the root of the issue but the presence of the trigger had the ability to destabilise one’s thought process.
In that moment, I felt like Zaheer was my trigger. He wasn’t the problem but every time I saw him or was near him, he unnerved me and my anxiety would intensify.
If he really was a trigger, it would explain my reactions towards him.
I heard footsteps before I heard a voice.
ZAHEER: Yasmeen.
My head shot up. How did he find the maze?
I rolled my eyes and instinctively stood up, ready to walk back to the tent
ZAHEER: Wait- wait. Just stop running away for one minute.
I folded my arms
ZAHEER: I’m sorry. I’m sorry I made that- joke. It was a joke. I was joking.
I let out a sarcastic laugh.
ZAHEER: What’s funny?
ME: What sort of a person do you think I am? In Dubai, I told you I don’t date. I don’t get involved in all this crap. And then you come here knowing I don’t want to speak to you and you make a joke over something ridiculous. Oh and lets not forget the accusations in Dubai. I am tired of speaking to you. You just- yo
ZAHEER: I keep saying the wrong thing
ME: Yes.
ZAHEER: Maybe I should just stop talking.
ME: Until you know what it is you are trying to say, yeah, maybe you should. You keep making things worse.
He nodded his head slowly.
ZAHEER: I didn’t want to make things worse. I wanted to help you.
I scoffed.
ZAHEER: In Dubai, you told me you had a lot going on and you were struggling but if me being here adds to that- to the problems inside your head, then I’ll go.
But before he left, he turned around to face me.
ZAHEER: Can I ask you one last question?
I nodded my head.
ZAHEER: Earlier on you said that I have a party lifestyle and it doesn’t fit into yours. Why would you say that?
I shook my head.
ME: I didn’t mean it… It slipped out of my mouth. I saw some pictures of you on Facebook in what seemed like a party environment but- it’s not my place to speak about things I don’t know anything of.
He nodded his head, acknowledging my answer.
ZAHEER: For what it’s worth, I’m sorry for screaming at you in Dubai. I didn’t mean what I said. I just- I was caught off guard when you said what you said about Ashley. I got defensive and said a lot of dumb things that I didn’t mean and-
ME: It’s fine-
ZAHEER: No. No, it’s not. I need you to know that I was wrong. We might not have seen each other in six years, but that doesn’t change the fact that you do know me. If I have to spend my time getting your memories back, I will. Because you know me and that connection doesn’t just go away. It’s never gone away for me.
I wanted to speak but no words came to mind. How could he be so confident in a childhood friendship that I had vague memories of?
ZAHEER: I’m sorry, Yasmeen. Just forget everything I’ve said so far. Let’s start over.
Before I could reply, I heard footsteps. But I was saved. For when the footsteps arrived, Zaheer had vanished.
FATIMAH: There you are. I’ve been looking everywhere for you.
My heart was beating rapidly in my chest as I tried to smile.
FATIMAH: Hey, what’s wrong?
ME: Nothing. I just needed a moment to breathe.
We headed back to the tent and I immediately reached for the water. I was parched.
FATIMAH: Nuha sent me a message. She said she’s coming with Uzair.
I felt a sense of relief. The Bobats were coming. At least that would distract me. Soon enough, they arrived and I tried my best to play hostess.
UZAIR: We’re not staying. Nuha just wanted to pick you up.
ME: Haha. You have jokes. I can’t leave.
NUHA: What? Why not?
ME: Look around, there’s too many people. My mother will never let me.
Nuha pouted and I pouted right back.
NUHA: Fatimah, are you coming with?
FATIMAH: If Yusuf comes, I’ll come.
NUHA: Perfect, so if you could just convince Yasmeen to-
ME: Go enjoy yourselves. I will be right here. Don’t worry about me.
Nuha shot me a look as if to ask why I was being difficult. I simply shrugged my shoulders. At that exact moment, Aaliya skipped her way over to me.
AALIYA: Yasmeen, can you please show me where the bathroom is?
Her manners never failed to amuse me.
ME: Sure love, give me one minute.
NUHA: I am waiting for you Yasmeen Raheem.
ME: Nuha, seriously. I can’t leave. We have guests from abroad.
NUHA: Is that why you won’t come? Because of the Dubai family friends?
ME: I mean… sort of. Look, I need to take her to the bathroom so-
NUHA: Just bring them with.
ME: What?
NUHA: Bring them with.
I gave her a perplexed look. Behind me, I could hear Fatimah snicker and I almost glared.
AALIYA: Yasmeen, I really need to use the bathroom.
I exhaled, torn between two conversations. It was at that exact moment that Zaheer appeared.
ZAHEER: It’s okay. I’ll take Aaliya inside.
And before I could put up anymore of a fight, the Mohamed siblings walked away, leaving me with a migraine.
#hooked
Yaaaaay!!!! 42:) is here
Wow what a turn around I really home uzair gives him a slap or something or even like say lay of MY YAS:)
No, I hope zah and yas rekindle their ‘friendship’ but first he gotta looooot of apologizing 2 do /:) …And explaining!
And then we want sum Fayaan action lol!
woop woop fayaaan 😉 x
hahahahahhaha 😉
Ahhhhh, 2nd to comment 😀 😀
Luvv it! #Fayaaaan<3 *2cutex*
Awhh, Zah and yas r jus 2 adorable! *crying*
Plsss update soooon ! Im dying… Literally 😛
So, we can expect a surprise post soon maybe coz u lyk thee best author ever*eyelashes*
you gusy are getting a post tonight 😛 now please go enjoy your friday 😉
Amaaaaazzzzzzzing post. I hope the 3rd part of eid is due this afternoon, since this came before noon lol.
hahahaha naaah it’ll be in the night :)x
PLEASE PLEASE POST THE 3RD PART THIS AFTERNOON!!!! WE BEG U (EYELASHES) 😥 😥
IT’LL BE IN THE NIGHT 😀
Awesome post!! 😀 love yas & fati’s dresses (“,) wonder why Uzzi wants zah to join them?? *thinking*
Can we please have 43 later today please please pleeeeaaassseeee *eyelashes*
I think uzzi is gonna be all over yas just to make zah super jealous and also for hurting yas, I HOPE uzzi takes this opportunity to show yas that she means the world to him. I like zah but I still think uzzi is the 1 for yas. Zah and nuha would be perfect for each other 😉
Hmmm I’m sure ur right Faiza 😀 but Uzzi is such a sweet guy so I dunno if tryna make Zah jealous is his thing… But then again, there’s a 1st time for everything right 😉
Or maybe yas will be all over Uzzi? :p coz she needed to be comforted by Uzzi after having that convo with Zah by the water fountain….
hahahhaa
i do not ship zah and nuha
blaaaagh sends shiveres up my sppine,,,,the freaky shivers
mz authr hw do u thnk we cn enjoy our friday if we don knw wtz gona happn nxt… plz give us an aftrnoon pst
YAAAAY!!zaheer finally cme to his senses lol
zah n yas foreva!!!!!
i thnk uzair is gona try to pt yas nz zah togtr awwwwa so sweet bt as sweet as uzair is i stil wnt zaheer n yasmeen to b togthr……..
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ammmmazin post n ammmazzing dresses!
Here’s da ting, wen u truly luv sum1 n care abt dem, den u want wuts best 4 dem, evn if it aynt YOU
I tink uzi wants 2 fix wut broke btwn yas n zah, becoz he’s also a sweety lydat
He has 2 let yas go… N he wants her 2 hav sum1 in dubai, els she’l jst fall apart
Sumtyms u gta make da sacrifice
Yeah, n if im ryt, den way da go uzzi ! Mmmmwah ❤
how very inspirational thoughtful and very cleverly worded ms.sky 🙂
hahahhahaha you are team zaheer ALL the way 😉
staunch teamzaheered 😛 x
Really can’t wait 4 43:)
Uzair? Uzair! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?
Okay maybe he’s being nice you know so that Zaheer isn’t left all alone I mean it’s Eid after all…..
Such a sweetheart he is (:
But, seriously? Zaheer thinks one little scene by the water fountain is going to fix everything psh
Yasmeen’s dress is soooo pretty, absolutely love it :).
The relationship between Fatima & Yasmeen – doesn’t it remind you of your best friends?
“best friends? No. More like sisters♥”
Patiently Waiting for Eid Part 3 🙂
I know it’s going to be epic 😉 (better be)
Jumuah Mubarak to everyone!!!
better be 😉 and if not 😛
lol jummah mabrook to you to babes 🙂
hahahahah uzair is a nice guy such a sweetheart
can he PLEASE exist X_x
hahaha if not you should be afraid 😛
Shukran 🙂
Lol I’m sure he exists…but maybe on another planet?
mars… pluto….jupiter…uzairpiter
thats a really bad name 😛 x
Love the post ♥ zah an yas AwwWw so cute 🙂 but zah still has a lot of explaining to do …….uzzi is the best 🙂 fatz an zayaan ooOw…. can’t wait for tonight *dancing*
#fayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan ❤
Aaah. The suspense…….!!!
Ms. Author, why do you do this 😦
When boys read Diary of a Dubain 🙂
Lmao Zakira!! Well said! :p if it was just the girls, we’d be getting a lot more posts in a day 😉
Err. Faaiza, you actually get more posts cos there’s a ‘guy’ here…
Miss author is gonna be posting 43 & 44 today in honour of me ;P (don’t let me down)
in honour of you? Since when did I honour you 😕
baffledbeyondmybuttons!
so nopes
43 will come out tonight
kallas 🙂
hahahahah IKNOWRIGHT!
Plus, i really thought he was agirl because theres s reader called T and then theres MR.T
so i thought they were like twins or something X_x
patience….
Lmao Ms Author, remember what u told me bout 44?? :p
nopes….what did i tell u about 44??
Lmao!!! Hahahahahahahahahaha!! Miss Author, I see u ain’t budging at all :p oh well, it was worth a try 😉
finally 🙂 you give up 😛 *phew*
Lol u told me u not gonna be posting it tonight 😦 but I’ll keep asking u for it :p
hahahahahhaha pleaaseee give up 😉 x
Oh no no no no *evil laugh* I’m far from giving up Ms Author!! 😉 I don’t give up so easily! 😛
Never… Gonna give up miss author….. Never! Not until the end…. Hahaha
shush!
Awesome blog,forget about Zaheer,he’s not worth it,lol,Mr T and I will only be twins on Uzairpiter
hahahahaahhaha!!! i really do like that name
Uzairpiter 😉 So all you #teamuzair lovers you know where to find him 😛
Eh.. Sorry T. I’m already from another planet… (Ms. Author knows.) as far as being twins is concerned… I’m gonna have to say no 😛 I like being unique ;D no offence. Loll
that is soooo mean 😛 T, he is just ashaaaamed because he thinks he’s better than us 🙂 but he’s not
he is just as african as we are…
U never know! 😉 like haaj says “maybe he’s stuck in a tree or something.. Or maybe he’s lost & just too stubborn to ask for directions!” 😛 lmao!!
We gotta have faith 😉
By the way,wat does the T in Mr T stand for,does it stand for tandoori or tarkari,lol,I’m just joking
hahahaha they call him tandoori, Mr. tandoori 🙂
The T in ‘Mr. T’ stands for turtle 😛
What’s the ‘T’ stand for in your name? Tacos? Tortillas? #mexicanfood 😉
nooo….the T stands for tooth fairy!
are you hungry 😛 taco’s tortillas tandoori X_x
Lmao!!! T & Ms Author, u ladies making me laugh & now people are looking at me like I’m crazy! Hahahaha Mr Tandoori :p
So Uzairpiter hey?? I wonder if haaj & saadz will join me on my rocket to find my Zahmeez on Uzairpiter?? :p
Lol ok ok so none of u besides haaj & saadz understood what I just said! Lol sorry peeps 😉
Wasn’t haaj team zaheeeeer 😛 lol so confuuused cant keep up with you guys
zahmeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez 😦 x
Lol no Ms Author, isn’t haaj team Yusuf?? Lol hahahaha ya its hard to keep up with us 😉
Awwwwhh Ms Author, why u so sad at the mention of Zahmeez??
because zahmeeez doesnt exist 😦 x
Lol,no worries,I also like to be unique,well “Mr T”,my “T” stands for “Totally awesome”,I just don’t put the awesome part cause I don’t wanna show off *wink wink*,just joking,my T stands for Taskeen
Lol. Just call me, Mr. T.
T as in terminator 😛
PS: good one ms author *hugs*
Lmao lmao haaj!! I don’t think this ‘special companion’ knows who they are… Lol u gonna have to hint a little… :p
Hahahahahahahaha as usual, u looking for free food again haaj 😉 lol from planning my honeymoon, I see u’ve gone on to plan my walimah now! Lmao… If u behave, u’ll get nice gifts 😀 if not, u’ll get the ‘rocks’ :p
If uzzi tries n n hooks them up again then he sure is 1 of a kind. Atlst the 2 faizas agree ;-D
Yea true Faiza… Lol hehehe we gotta agree on things, after all we do share the same name 😉
did not read yet but know it will be exciting
Great blogg!!!
thankyoou x
Lmao haaj!!! I’m glad ur alive 😀 u won’t be leaving us anytime soon In Sha Allah 🙂 *beeeeggg bear hugs*
jumuaa mubarak to all
awesome post could not have been better
BAAP RE BAAAP
DARLING HAAJ how do you manage to write such LONG comments 😛
havn’t read it yet…i will in due time 😉
Lol Ms Author I told u!! Haaj & are huuuge chatterboxes :p
Lol haaj no, cornflakes make u high!! Hahahahahahaha especially if u eat them at night 😉 remember what happened last night haaj? :p
Yea, where’s Fan?? Maybe she’s eating yummy Jummah lunch! 😀
hahahahha nopes di dopessss don’t goo :9xxx
I’m here I’m here I’m here! I know ull missed мε 😛 but guess what? I missed ul just as much, plus a lot more 😀 Sorry was practising walking in Loubies 😀 I can’t be dressed to kill and not be able to walk straight. So after all that practise, u will think I was born with it 😛
I’m ready to go with Ridwaan and crew 😀 anyone else coming? 😉
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Yay 42
My dua got exceptd . .o.m.w. .sh didnt stay in th car. .wh0op wh0op. .lol
Where do you get your dress pics they are gorgg
google 😀 x
http://www.conceitedvixen.wordpress.com A truly amazing blog
I just think uzzi wants Yas on his turf, and have a one on one with her….. after all she is leaving for dubai! how I wish we wud be serious and tell her how much he loves her! Team uzzi for sure! Hey Yas forgot to give uzzi his gift…:)
hahahaha thats the point of a next post :Px
Yas n zaheer get married n then they hav an accidnt n zah dies n yas is depressd n dsnt care bout life any more until she meets uzzi n uzzi teachs her how to live again n they fall in love all over again n get married n make babies n then have many grand childrn…see win win for both dudes!! 😀
OMG 😀 hahahahahaha that is the BEST most DRAMATIC suggestion i have heard by far
award goes to you ms xoxox 😉 hahahahaha for being super creative! xxx
Lol awww thanx!!! N the award 4 thee best author goes to you ms dubain!! Hu will generusly reward us fans with 2 posts 2nyt 😀
How come everyone is so down on Zaheer? Maybe I need to reread the chapter but the guy bought her louboutins and she was flirting with his friend! He was quite sweet to her, what am I missing?
please post now….my internet dont work in the night…plzzz…..plzzz…i really want to read the next part, 43…agghs…prayin to my Allah so part 43 can come out now….
Whens the next post 😀 ooooo that excitement 😀 I’m getting tired of waiting 😦
hey ther wat exact tym will it be posted?
and ms dubain u sooo sweet thats y i looove reading your blog, all other blog writers dont reply to comments even though they want all of us to comment. I love your sense of hunility. You have always replied…. Shukran
love u lots and lots like jelly tots!!!
You so right @A,ms author is like the best author ever,she’s so sweet,sweet like the marshmallow cuppies *hugs*
OMW Zah!!!! Finally uu made ur first move!! Lol about time! *wipping forehead*..lol but u got alot of damage to fix Mr Zah !! =P lol and u better fix it !! And don’t hurt n make my poor Uzzi jealous !!*crying*…lol and thee dresses aare beautiful our gorgeous author!! *dancing* they must have looked smashing !! *wink*…and we definitely need sooome mooore info on FAYAAN !! *dancing* *excited* whoop !! Whoop !!…lol Yas and make Zah work for that forgiveness altho °̩ know uu love him to bits n pieces *wink*…but he has to know he was wrong =P…bt Zah also got hurt also. The poor lil dude lol lol…°̩ hope things come ryt! …but really Uzzi the sweetheart mustnt get more hurt *sad* …Uzzi deserves theee best!! Bt Yas and Zah together are perfect and just makes more sense …lol n Haaj is missing Yusuf °̩ can see *wink*…Miss gorgeous author show us alil of them as well =P…#TeamUzzi<3 #TeamZah&Yas#TeamFayaan#TeamYus&Haaj …thanx for theee awesome post !! Makes me miss Eid!! =P and Uzzi is such a sweet cutie pie inviting Zah to come!! He is like a dream come true x_X…lol xoxo thanx again our gorgeooooous author !!
Lmao Haaj don’t uu dare hook ur Yusuf up with Nuha *straight face* *speak to the hand* hahahahaha…he is all yooours and its so nt happening =P…lmao our amazing author sshe is missing him =P too much °̩ can feel it hahaha
Wow saadz u got longg comments. Some1 wake up in tahajjud n make duaa I get zaheerrrr!!
iz da pst gona b midnyt one?????
@A
totally absolutely wit u exactly dat!!!!! keep it cummin
Sooooo,it’s the niiiiiight,can’t wait for part 43 *jumping up and down*
DD is real good food for the soul 😀 these posts just keep getting better and better.
Did ull hear abt my Zaheer 😛 Wen he walked in, everyone turned 😀 that boys Noor is blinding lmao
He is soo cute and adorable in his own unique way *drooling* Uzair invited him too :O I hope Uzair got good intentions! I hope he didn’t just invite him to make him jealous 😦 and Yas better not give Uzair his gift infront of Zaheer as a means of making him jealous!!! *hint to author :P. I got no more tears or tissues left 😀
I know, we actually made it to survive another day and read another post hahaha.. *jumping* * falling in sajdah out of gratitude*
Haha thort I was seeing an angel when he walked, lucky fati smarti shut my mouth before the fly went in 😀 and and wen he gazed at me, he thought it was looking at his Hurul Ain lmao… #alljokes
Yes yes yes! What’s Eid withour Eidy?? So I’m asking Uzzi 1st for Eidy 😀
And all u awsome commentators, if u feel bad for not giving Haaj and i Eidy we will forward u our banking details 😛
hahahahhahahahhahahhahahhaha banking details REALLY GIRLIES 😉
Its nyyytttttttt n we still waiting 😦
WOW!!! Love this blog & R101:) U girls Rock:) plz plz plz plz can u post another plz 2day plz I beg u, I’m in need of another dose of this awesome blog:) Have to say in so jealous of Yas LOUBOUTINS, and as 4 Uzair and Zah gotta love dem:):D Keep up the fab work doll:) #YouBiggestFan:) Xx
Haaha yesss Faai haaj,°̩ and thee special companion will be joining u om ur rocket for ur honey moon to the moon =P then we will leave u guys in peace to rule the moon !! *eyelashes*…lol Zahmeez won’t mind *wink*…and haaaaaaaaaj where did u pull our perfect Uzzi with Saadz *laughing*…altho °̩ wud die for am Uzzi *heart eyes*…lol bt its uUu and Yusuf!! Don’t bring Nuha in this =P
Still no post??*crying*
Slms …. Dnt mean to be nagging but really what to know what time are we getting another looong post tonight?? 😀
*How old is The Author?
Heeey All You Awesome Readers…
A birdie came with a note saying to inform u all that.. . . Next post will be out AFTER 12.
Ps. Author doing us a huge favour by posting for us again, so let’s not nag her to post earlier 🙂 xoxo
Heeey All You Awesome Readers…
A birdie came with a note saying to inform u all that.. . . Next post will be out AFTER 12.
Ps. Author doing us a huge favour by posting for us again, so let’s not nag her to post earlier xoxo
@Fan
serious???no jkes???
sooo aftr twelve tonyt… cnt wait!!*xcited*
No jokes 😀 its bothing but the truth 🙂
ITS OUT 😀
Night is here eagerly awaiting the next post.
Ok i’m done waiting tonight… give up. will read tom, hopefully…. 😦
it’s ouuut :))